There’s always so much promise. I remember vividly the day I told my parents I wanted to climb Mt. Rainier. I was a wild eyed 8th grade houligan who marched into the house after a Spring day of classes, and told my mom I got invited to go climb this mountain. First of all, I basically invited myself in the middle of math class that day, and secondly I had never hiked farther than around the block and I didn’t know a thing about mountaineering. I could barely tie my shoes at this point in my life, let alone a climbing knot. My mom shared this news with my dad later in the evening and he said he wasn’t interested in going, but my mom on the other hand, started to get a little fire in her eyes and she wanted to go. After sometime, we got my dads blessing and my mom and I flew out to Washington to slog up Mt. Rainier. We had no clue what we were doing, thankfully we were climbing with a Living Mountaineering Legend, and he led us to the top. It was almost like a dream, being up there with my mom, I think this is one of the first times I figured out what it meant to be loved and to love others; at least a time that really stuck out to me. The whole way down from the summit to high camp my mom was falling down and landing on her backside. She did this over, and over, and over again until finally we rolled into camp way after dark. As she kept falling I kept thinking “Wow she is doing this for me. She’s falling and suffering because she wants to be with me.” This changed me deeply. It gave me a deep love for my mom, the mountains, and I got a taste of God up there. It was a turning point for me.
As I have lived life since this moment I have had to make decisions both in the mountains and in regular life, and I still get giddy about the promise, the possibilities, that exist when you are faced with something new. I long and crave for newness- it’s part of my personality- exploring and creating just come naturally to me. While routines and equations don’t come naturally to me- I’ll save these things for the smart people. Find out what you’re good at, what you love to do, and ask God to make you giddy about pursuing that. Ask him to eliminate the fear that often holds us back and make the decision to trust him. Don’t have a Bible study about it-just go do it. When Jesus is at the center of your decision you can’t go wrong. I want to be totally abandoned to Jesus like my mom was to me. She didn’t sit around and think about the pros and cons of climbing Rainier-she just knew she wanted to have an adventure with her son, so she went. Heck, just a couple of days ago my mom called me and said she wanted to run 50 miles in the spring-I told her she should really think about that one-but whatever, why not? (I secretly hope she chooses not to;)).
Untie the lines, push off from the dock, and go be you. God doesn’t have the crazy expectation for you to be someone you’re not. He created you the way you are for a reason. Tap into that and don’t be blown around by the opinions of others-most of the time they’re just as afraid to be who they want to be too. I pray that we will trust him and rest assured that He has the best for us-a full and abundant life.
“We won’t figure out what’s sacred in life if we settle for what’s safe.”- Bob Goff